Here at WordPress, that is.
Some comments on yesterday’s post got me thinking about all the sites that have hosted my online journals in the past. When I first got started, I was thoroughly happy at diary-x.com. I was able to do all sorts of customizations, based from a friend’s template and changed slowly over time as I got more comfortable with how the code worked behind the scenes. I stayed on dx for nearly two years, from the start of my freshman year of college until the site’s servers bit the dust sometime my sophomore year.
I lost a lot of memories and a lot of reflections on the growth I underwent that year when the site died. I also learned the value of offline backups.
After the crash, I moved to Xanga, where a large number of then-college students were blogging and networking. I was able to recreate much of the appearance of my dx site, although I never got as comfortable as I was on dx. Nor did I use it as religiously.
As time passed, I used Xanga less and less, but I still wanted a place to jot down my thoughts. I moved in with Southern Honey and found Open Diary. I used that for a time, while I kept an eye on the forums that grew up around the ashes of dx, waiting for it to be reincarnated.
In the meantime, my use of a blog waned. I got caught up in work, school, living with a member of the opposite sex for the first time, friends, turning 21… Life, basically. I didn’t seem to have a lot of time to spare for introspection. I had also fallen out with the friend who got me started on dx, and that had soured me some on the entire blogging experience.
I graduated from college in 2007 and got my current job in January 2008. I moved out on my own, living alone, completely alone, for the first time ever. That left me with a great deal of time on my hands for reading and writing and introspection. Which led me back to the Codexed forums one last time, where I discovered that the journaling feature had finally been reinstated.
Unfortunately, while I signed in and wrote an entry then and there, I apparently promptly forgot all about the darned thing and never went back. And when I started up this blog, it never occurred to me to visit Codexed again and give them a second chance. That’s how I ended up here at WordPress, missing the easy customization and huge amount of personalization I enjoyed once upon a time in college.
Tonight I went back to Codexed, trying to decide whether or not I wanted to go back. It’s been so long that I don’t have a readily available template; I’d have to start from scratch. But I started from scratch once before, and it was the beginning of a beautiful friendship.
Then again, maybe that’s not what I need anymore. Maybe I’ve outgrown the need to mold the space around me into something I love in cyberspace. After all, I have a house for that now, right? Freshman year was a long time ago, and I was a very different person then. I’m also never going to be able to get back what I’ve lost. Maybe it’s best to make a clean break with that part of my life.
Who knows? Maybe I’ll use both simultaneously. We’ll see.